Day 35

Day 35 this of cycle.

Day 16 of injections.

Roughly 10 more days of injections to go.

Apart from how annoyingly long this cycle is, everything is going well.

I had my first blood test on Tuesday and everything is as it should be. I have another blood test on the 3rd and I expect I will also start having scans from late next week.

Yesterday I started my second injection. Gonal F. This one will zap my ovaries into production and help my body to produce lots of follicles and eggs.

Finally, I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It has been a  very long tunnel but he end is in sight. One way or another, it will come to an end soon.

I have surprised myself this round with how laid back and relaxed I feel about it all. Yesterday I did my injections sitting on a bathroom floor in a restaurant. Tomorrow I will be doing them at a wedding. 

I think I have come to a point where I realise that I have done everything I can. It will either work or it wont, but that's not on me. I have done my part. The rest is up to God. And I trust His plans. 

Isaiah 43:18-19 'But the Lord says, do not cling to events of the past, or dwell on what happened long ago. Watch for the new thing I am going to do. It is happening already - you can see it now! I will make a road through the wilderness and give you streams of water there.

Thanks for reading,

Alana, Frankie and Flex Thunderstache Xx

Day 21

Injections have started!

Finally!

Although we started treatment just over 2 weeks ago, now that I am doing the injections, I feel like things have really started.

Flex Thunderstache didn't even know we had started treatment until a couple of days ago! I am not sure if he wasn't listening or if I didn't tell him. 3rd time round and I am feeling pretty relaxed about it all. It's amazing how casual we have become about it. Its just part of our routine and injecting myself each night just seems normal. 

As this is a long cycle, I will be doing injections for about 25 days. 2.5 times longer than the previous cycles. 

Lucky me.

This time I am using a drug called Lucrin. For this drug, I have to draw it up in the needle out of a little bottle. This is new for me, but fortunately they make it all pretty straight forward. The great thing about using Lucrin, is that I wont have to use Orgalutran this time. (The one that stings heaps and has a fat needle) Yay!

So for now I just carry on with the injections. My first blood test will be in about 1.5 weeks. This should give us an indication of how things are going and how well I am responding to the drugs.

Until next time,

Alana, Flex and Frankie

Day 12

Day 12 and everything is ticking along nicely. Actually it's been pretty uneventful but I am getting closer to the day I start my injections (15th March) and then I will really feel like things have started.

I had an appointment with my naturopath on Monday and all is well there. I am continuing with my current plan which is hopefully going to give us some good quality eggs this time. I have loosened up (just a little bit) with my strict diet so I need to tighten that up again. We are so close. I just need to be strong and disciplined for a little bit longer.

Last night Flex Thunderstache and I completed our consent forms for this cycle. I was thinking back to the first ones we did and how it felt like such a big deal. I think I actually had a bit of a melt down over them. Now we are experts. It took all of 2 minutes as we confidently ticked boxes and crossed out options. How things have changed!

Last weekend, I headed up to martinborough (one of my favourite places to escape to) for a girls werkend. I went with my mum, aunt and sister in law. The fair was on and we had such a great time. Great conversations, lots of laughs and lovely food. 

The word I have found myself using a lot for this round of treatment is hope. While checking put all the amazing stalls at the fair, I saw a necklace printed with the word hope and I new I had to have it. My lovely mum insisted on buying it for me and when I put it on, my aunt commented on how it was the perfect lenght. The word hope sits right on my belly. And my sister in law said that one day I will be able to get the second disk printed with the birth date of my baby.

Sometimes I feel foolish for being so hopeful.

Sometimes it's really hard to let your heart be so vulnerable. Infertility has hurt it so many times.

But one day I will be able to tell my child that I believed that they would be mine. That I hoped and waited with expectation

for them to arrive.

This is why I choose hope.

Xx Alana, Flex Thunderstache & Frankie xx